I Am Usually Not In The Experience That I Am Describing But I Can Be

My God Relationship
Future Time Two

“In the common Gestalt representation of `faces’ and `vase,’” I said,
“whether you see two faces or a vase depends on which part of the
drawing you see as a figure and which part as background. Although the
drawing allows you to switch back and forth between two ways of
organizing perception, you can not perceive the reversible drawing both
ways at the same time. This figure/ground relationship, by analogy, is
what is behind my personal relationship with God. Via the X/Y form,
God manifests the form of self-consciousness while I—think, feel, speak, and act out—the content of self-consciousness/self-awareness. In other words, my self-awareness is also God’s self-awareness.”

“So what happened? What did you do after that shocking experience,” MV responded.

“Well, like I said, there were two experiences,” I replied. “The
third-person one, the processing of the information, came first. I had
to talk to someone after that, and I knew what I had to say would not
be easy to understand, so I enrolled in an independent study class in
the religion department of my university. There, I knew I would be
able to express my ideas, as well as get the feedback that I craved. I
was finishing up that class when I experienced God in the
first-person. In fact, to get a better appreciation for that
experience, maybe I should read the paper that I was working
on at the time when I had that experience. As I recall, when I had that
experience, I was in the University library—it was awesome!


About bwinwnbwi

About me: Marvin Gaye’s song, "What’s Going On" was playing on the jukebox when I went up to the counter and bought another cup of coffee. When I got back, the painting on the wall next to where I was sitting jumped out at me, the same way it had done many times before. On it was written a diatribe on creativity. It was the quote at the bottom, though, that brought me back to this seat time after time. The quote had to do with infinity; it went something like this: Think of yourself as being in that place where infinity comes together in a point; where the infinite past and the infinite future meet, where you are at right now. The quote was attributed to Hermann Hesse, but I didn’t remember reading it in any of the books that I had read by him, so I went out and bought Hesse’s last novel, Magister Ludi. I haven’t found the quote yet, but I haven't tired of looking for it either.
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