The God Connection

My God Relationship
Future Time Two

“So when did you realize the connection?” said MV. “You know, getting
hooked up with the big guy, the one on high?”

“When I finally stepped back and took in the whole meaning of what I
was thinking,” I replied. “At first the X/Y form was about how freedom
existed in a world of cause and effect, but as it developed, it became
impossible not to notice its religious significance. In fact, making
that connection was a very small step indeed.”

“How so,” said MV.

“Well, it wasn’t hard to infer the existence of God when you consider
that existence is really expressed freedom, and sense everything that
exists does so as an expression of freedom, then something must be
free. I suppose you don’t have to infer that God exists from that, but
what other option is there?”

“That must have been a shocker,” replied MV, “a real leap of faith.”

“Not really,” I said, “Actually, experience, and that experience in
particular, takes place in two ways. The first way is like in reading
a book. I guess that’s what we’re doing right now–information
processing. After an explanation, a nod of agreement is expected, but
even with supporting evidence, vigorous debates are sometimes
necessary before agreements are forthcoming. However, there is another
level, a first-person level of experience that requires no leap at all.

“Typically, when I describe an experience I am not inside the
experience—but I can be. When I am in pain, and say as much, there is
no disconnect. My word’s—`why me,’ and body language, erase any doubt
that I am right there, front and center in the experience of the pain
that I am describing. To be sure, in the beginning, that was not the
way I experienced the X/Y form; then the knowledge/feeling experience
was not a first person experience. However, at a later date, I did
actually experience my `I-consciousness’ merge with the `presence of a
self-aware God in the here and now,’ and that, for me, was a shocking.
Eventually, I came off of that high, but there was never
any going back after that.

“Put another way, it works like this: God resides in my temporal
present as an all-knowing self-awareness, but I do not (usually)
experience self-awareness this way. Instead, I experience my own
beliefs, concerns, and intentions; I experience my past and my future
in terms of my own thoughts, words, and deeds. `All that is me,’ says
the X/Y form, `is an affirmation,’ and `all that is not me’ says the
X/Y form, `is also an affirmation—an affirmation that takes place in
the ‘God space of logical implication.’ Thus (and this is a really huge
thus), when the meaning of this state of affairs becomes clear,
responsibilities shift from my own personal relationship to myself, to
the more overwhelming relationship of `my relationship’ to God’s
self-awareness, i.e., my God relationship. This may sound strange, but
there is a common analogue to this relationship, an analogue to my
personal relationship with God through self-consciousness, –and it is
expressed in the Gestalt figure/ground images.


About bwinwnbwi

About me: Marvin Gaye’s song, "What’s Going On" was playing on the jukebox when I went up to the counter and bought another cup of coffee. When I got back, the painting on the wall next to where I was sitting jumped out at me, the same way it had done many times before. On it was written a diatribe on creativity. It was the quote at the bottom, though, that brought me back to this seat time after time. The quote had to do with infinity; it went something like this: Think of yourself as being in that place where infinity comes together in a point; where the infinite past and the infinite future meet, where you are at right now. The quote was attributed to Hermann Hesse, but I didn’t remember reading it in any of the books that I had read by him, so I went out and bought Hesse’s last novel, Magister Ludi. I haven’t found the quote yet, but I haven't tired of looking for it either.
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3 Responses to The God Connection

  1. eof737 says:

    I think I followed this blog when you started it… then somehow got un-followed… odd. Glad to reconnect. 😉

    • bwinwnbwi says:

      I have had the same problem with your blog. The problem started at the turn of the year. The pages on the postaday bog cite back then numbered 14 before they reached yesterday’s posts. After January that number dropped to 2 pages and I have yet to find your blog in that number. And then there was/is that strange glitch where people get sent to the blog that I no longer post at—I don’t understand all this, but I am glad to reconnect with you also. Thanks for the comments. Take care.

  2. bwinwnbwi says:

    Here’s my answer to how the eternal and the finite coexist. Inherent in both matter (~~b) and self-consciousness (b~b~bb) we witness the “affirmative ideal.” Soul, if that’s what one wants to call “life after death,” has no place to go outside the affirmative ideal! I am not going to argue that there is life after death; but, I will argue that death is a necessary structural condition of human consciousness and hence a condition that implies something like life after death exists. In other words, because self-existent reality—the affirmative ideal—is wedded to what we call reality, I am free to know the world in its worldliness, spatiality, quantity, temporality, and instrumentality because (like blood flowing through veins) a higher reality circulates within all that gets called reality.

    Freedom is both the source and ground of universe/life/reason, while at the same time, being absolutely transcendent as the “affirmative ideal.” The three different pulses of freedom’s interconnectivity explain away the seemingly unbridgeable gap that separates science and religion; the third pulse liberating the “affirmative ideal in human consciousness,” which, in turn, became the source of meaningful symbol creation that opened the door to language creation, myth, religion, art, theoretical knowledge, and the rest of the civilizing processes that we call civilization.

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