Body Of Christ—The Door Into The Most Vital Love

St. Ignace, Michigan
Aug. ‘80

The teaching of the meaning of the death of Jesus was a uniquely
Christian teaching, but that meaning was not what Jesus taught.
Sitting in that congregation, totally absorbed in the words coming
from the pulpit, I felt a sudden change in my disposition. I no longer
felt like a particular. My sense of separateness began to dissolve.
When Peter approached Jesus and heard the words, “The time is coming
when I must leave my body,” Jesus was not talking about “stepping out
of life,” rather he was talking about “stepping into life,” into the
whole birth-death process that sustains life and divinity. “Leaving,”
for Jesus, meant that a door opened—a door into the body of Christ,
into the body of all people caring for each other, into the body of
all divinity that makes love possible. Jesus died so that a more vital
love might be shared—a love for each other, for life, and for the
divine. For that one brief moment I felt at peace, really at peace. I
felt whole. I felt love.

I don’t have any more words for what happened to me while I listened
to that sermon, except possibly, that there is a whole lot more to say
if I only had the words. Walking away from church I was overcome with
yet another emotion, one that said, “It’s all right, everything’s
going to be okay.” At the start of this bicycle trip I was curiously
aware that I should not expect any new insights. The simple fact that
I was going on another bicycle trip was success enough. It affirmed my
chosen lifestyle and living that lifestyle was all the reward I
needed. No further contentment was necessary. So why, on this, the
very last day of my trip, did I get this feeling of wholeness while
sitting in a completely unfamiliar Christian church with total
strangers. It’s funny how some things work out differently than
planned–and better.

About this trip — it’s been good. It’s that simple. The one thing
that did go wrong — my knee, I accepted with no hard feelings. I took
a totally relaxed attitude about this trip and it paid off. Even in
the rain, and there was plenty, I did not let myself get to down. When
it got bad, as it did in northern British Columbia, I boarded a
train–a good choice. On many occasions I was so high from the scenery
that I felt like I was going to burst with joy. All of life came
together in those special moments, in those very special moments. On a
more negative note, I was definitely the odd man out among the more
adventurous youth. Youth has its place, and so does age; it is too bad
they rarely find a comfortable place to coexist—that separateness is
not irreproachable. Responsibilities go with each, and both are to be
valued for their potentialities. I think its time to leave. I see my
parent’s coming to pick me up.


About bwinwnbwi

About me: Marvin Gaye’s song, "What’s Going On" was playing on the jukebox when I went up to the counter and bought another cup of coffee. When I got back, the painting on the wall next to where I was sitting jumped out at me, the same way it had done many times before. On it was written a diatribe on creativity. It was the quote at the bottom, though, that brought me back to this seat time after time. The quote had to do with infinity; it went something like this: Think of yourself as being in that place where infinity comes together in a point; where the infinite past and the infinite future meet, where you are at right now. The quote was attributed to Hermann Hesse, but I didn’t remember reading it in any of the books that I had read by him, so I went out and bought Hesse’s last novel, Magister Ludi. I haven’t found the quote yet, but I haven't tired of looking for it either.
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4 Responses to Body Of Christ—The Door Into The Most Vital Love

  1. Before I became a Jew, I rejected Christianity for two reasons. The idea that only through faith in Jesus as a son of God was salvation possible. And the behavior of most Christians I knew. But Jesus supposedly said, “Where two or more are gathered in my name, I am there also.” That came to me with this post. So did memories of many times I stopped into St Pats or another church when I worked in Manhatten. Mainly I was seeking a bit of peace away from the noise of the day. There were times, however, when there was more. That more was what you found and what I think Jesus was meant by his saying the above. It is the one with the life force or the what I think of as the love that waits for us all.

    Thank you for this and glad you found it..

    • bwinwnbwi says:

      If I were to guess, I would guess that I am more Jewish than I am Christian (I am neither; I am a label waiting to happen I suppose). As I recall, when reading Martin Buber, I loved what I was reading until problems arose upon beginning my third book under his authorship. At the end of my journal, I have a few posts where I quote Buber frequently. Also, while reading Rabbi David A. Cooper’s book, “God Is A Verb,” I had an “Oh My God Experience”—I was blown away by the similarity between his God concept and my own investigations concerning the X/Y form (the ~~b bridge in my new model of the observer/observed relationship). “Where two or more are gathered in my name, I (God/Jesus) am there also.” I agree. Thanks for sharing. Your comments are always appreciated. Take care.

  2. boozilla says:

    Well lived and said!

  3. bwinwnbwi says:

    So, what personal insight into our own nature can we claim? Last night I took another look at Stigmata, one of my favorite movies. Just before the end credits ran, these words appeared on the screen: “The kingdom of God is within you and all around you and not in buildings of wood and stone. Split a piece of wood and I am there, lift a stone and I am there.” These words, words taken from the gospel of Thomas, were recorded in the Aramaic language—the language of Jesus–some nineteen hundred years ago. The next words that appeared on the screen were these: “Whoever discovers the meaning of these sayings will not taste death.”

    Jesus said: “Split wood, I am there. Lift up a rock, you will find me there.” Gospel of Thomas saying 77b.

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